Torn between feeling downright overwhelmed by what is happening on one extreme ..to desperately trying to create joy and calm on the other extreme. I even baked the three-layer chocolate cake (recipe on the back of the Hershey's cocoa box) that my husband loves and typically enjoys just at Christmas.
Having friends over for dinner and laughs/giggles is my typical M.O. for counter-balancing stress......but can't do that right now (for all the obvious reasons). So much for patio dinners and group/neighborhood holiday celebrations this year....several weddings have been postponed.
It is spring, and over the last 20 years, I have created a monster of a garden.....it is a love/hate relationship.....mostly love, but sometimes I hate the work.....so I am tending the monster. In the vegetable garden, pea and lettuce seeds have sprouted, and swiss chard seeds were planted this week, after working in compost. Replaced the freeze-damaged rosemary plants and scattered a second pack of parsley seeds. In the main parterre flower garden (clipped boxwood lined with boxwood I started from cuttings almost two decades ago) , detailed weeding and doing a second trimming up of spent foliage on perennials/ferns has kept me busy.
Hoping I will be able to safely pick up about 10 flats of annuals during non-peak hours in a few weeks ....local nurseries are arranging buy-ahead, deliver-to-vehicle purchases this year. Inside/outside washing of the glass on the greenhouse .... a big project ... will be upcoming once it is warm enough to take the citrus, bay, and camellia trees outside, along with some tender tropicals.
It is not usual for me to devote 6-8 hours each day during spring, then I can begin to kick back a bit in June.
Even though it is a lot of work, that monster is also bringing a sense of peace, and the physical labor helps with sleep (especially in these stressful worrisome times).
Redbud, dogwood, wysteria, and ornamental cherry trees are all in full bloom, from temps in the 80s last week...it is an early spring here. I catch myself staring out the window a few times each morning, and later taking a few breaks on a bench near the cherry tree watching all the honey bees busy at work. Frost expected tonight. Mid-late April is our typical last frost.
The typical pair of mallard ducks showed up in the creek Monday, so we begin the relationship of being their fly-in cracked corn restaurant. Some years we have been blessed with having a duck nest on site, but too late for that this year, so we will be glad for the happy fly-ins. If the relationship develops as in the past, they will soon be coming up to the backdoor quacking, if we do not notice them first, for their cracked corn. They quickly train us (or vice versa). Each year they are named Walley and Ethel (aka The Waddells), even though they are probably the great-great-great-great grandkids now. Louie and Bluie (yes bluebirds) are busy prepping their box.
Daily walks (on non-rainy days) with my husband and pup are also good for the soul (and us physically). Looking forward to quiet mornings with birds chirping and evenings listening to crickets sing, while enjoying the bed swing on our little screen porch that we added last year.
Really miss seeing my friends and attending meetings of various groups/committees. I do not think I have put on lipstick in over three weeks (wearing a mask when I grocery shop now just once weekly). Instead of my typical hair style, a scrunchie or ballcap is the look for 2020.
It is as though life is on hold, while it also goes on at the same time.
I am guilty of stress eating too many dark chocolate chips and raiding the stash of emergency Trader Joe's Peppermint Jo-Jos stashed away last November. But, desperate times call for such actions (I keep telling myself). I hope I do not put on 5 "corona pounds" in the process ;o
Wishing each of you your own form of peace, and may you all safely pull thru this.